The Personal Side

 why share this information? you like feeling special. i like feeling important. if others see this and feel their ability to choose expand, feel like they have another option, feel like they have a better sense of freedom, i feel like i did something important and valuable. if others see and want me for interviews or want to ask me questions to get answers from about their specific perspectives, i feel important and valuable. it's ego, sure. it's part of my personal, specific desire to feel special, worthwhile and important. i love to help others. i can't force help on them. i, and we, can only ever offer freedom of choice. you get to choose. you get to choose whether you believe. you get to choose whether you apply. you get to choose everything for yourself. we love you. all of you. all of who you, specifically, are and all of the perspectives available on the planet. universe, really, but we/you aren't ready to go there quite yet.

 why does it seem only some people can 'channel, when it feels like so many more want the information than are allowing it through? you, the individual you, are focused on wanting answers to questions in a way that can make sense when explained to others. you say you don't want to be a teacher, but that's not entirely true. you deeply want to be understood. this makes sense to you. you want it in a way you can explain it to someone else. thus, you get answers that can be translated into information for others as well. it's still for you, specifically you. others may want the information too, yes. and they receive it. they translate it in the way that works for them, that lets them understand and use it in the way they want to. when they let themselves. but when someone asks them to explain it, they might lose track of what they're understanding. they might get frustrated, trying to explain it. they don't know "how" it works, only that it makes sense to...

 my shadows are with me out of pure love. they love me, even through my hatred of them. they love me so much, they will endure anything in their effort to deliver their message to me. they do not poof in a flash, snarling and growling. they fade into joy, sometimes fast sometimes slow, as they successfully deliver their entire message. yours is the courage to hear them fully. to love them fully back for the gift they give you.

 i want to be so strongly in my home frequency that nothing can stop me/everything and everyone around me can't help but find their home frequency as well.

 speaking to higher self: thy will be done this day! this is a day of completion; I give thanks for this perfect day,  miracle shall follow miracle and wonders shall never cease. bless adverse situations/encounters with people as "Success!" They are only for good and lead to prosperity. Thoughts today, as of posting: I don't remember at all where these notes were from. Might have been a webinar, might've been a book I was reading at the time, I have no idea. I still find them to be of value, but there are subtle flavors in the frequencies that don't sit well due to old beliefs still. I don't actively practice these to the degree that the connotations of the words suggest to me.

 what was my soul contract coming in here to this life? why did i come forward? what did i come to accomplish?  chariot freedom. empowerment. ambitious high achivement. fresh experiences. self-sufficient fulfillment. king of wands reversed mind confusing empowerment with domination. don't be controlling. allow others autonomy while staying in your own power.  page of wands a unique individual. nonconformist. independent by nature. leave the need for affirmation or approval. will serve others only until i figure out how to have them serve me.  freedom so strong that i would decline offer of fortune with any strings attached. trail-blazer. leader. a secret agent for the greater good. good at camoflaging. in due time able to transform the opinions of others - sway them over - to unity from divisiveness. thought-leader.

 what does non-romantic love look like? what is friendly love like? familial love? define these. give child aspect that.