14 - Introspective Cleaning write out
< Continued from 42 - Musing on 'God is pure love' on Meditational Musings > I've actually kept a public record of my thoughts a few times. Different sites, from journaling sites to a couple social media, to platforms not specifically designed for the way I used them, but not taking issue with it either. *chuckles* Usually ended up with at least a handful of people reading it just randomly (if you put it on the internet, there's a good chance it'll be seen by someone, somewhere, sometime). Each time it ended...um, poorly would be a good way to put it. Lost friendships, alienated family members, wounded relationships... Seemed like every time I was openly me - all of me - everything around me went away. So, the building of belief structures saying not just 'it's not safe to be me', but that 'I'm not worthy of love if I am me'. I'm reminded of a time I was told by a girl I went to school with, in middle school, that "Nobody li...