The Personal Side

 Practicing heart coherence techniques and Epsom salt baths help achieve similar effects to grounding. Grounding offers the earth's assistance (can be used on a quantum level) based on beliefs in play. Honor your beliefs.  For example: I currently acknowledge believing that touching bare earth soil or grass with bare foot or hand (or at most socks on) would be of more assistance to my efforts than continuing to do as I have been (which is staying inside more often than not, and wearing my comfy, but rubber-soled, shoes when I do go out). I acknowledge that I could probably be doing more to further my goals. I also acknowledge that if we do become a space-faring race, having practice with not having contact with soil would be exceedingly helpful. And, if our nonphysical and quasi-physical friends are to be believed, I believe it is ultimately true that actual physical contact with soil is not necessary. I acknowledge I simply don't have the beliefs in place to experience what I...

< Continued from  42 - Musing on 'God is pure love' on Meditational Musings > I've actually kept a public record of my thoughts a few times. Different sites, from journaling sites to a couple social media, to platforms not specifically designed for the way I used them, but not taking issue with it either. *chuckles* Usually ended up with at least a handful of people reading it just randomly (if you put it on the internet, there's a good chance it'll be seen by someone, somewhere, sometime).  Each time it ended...um, poorly would be a good way to put it. Lost friendships, alienated family members, wounded relationships... Seemed like every time I was openly me - all of me - everything around me went away. So, the building of belief structures saying not just 'it's not safe to be me', but that 'I'm not worthy of love if I am me'. I'm reminded of a time I was told by a girl I went to school with, in middle school, that "Nobody li...

 5/3/2022 cards pulled: compass - reversed metamorphosis dragon's lair understood meaning:  compass reversed - what you focus on is what the compass needle is going to point you toward. pay attention to what you're focused on. it becomes your 'higher power' (words from the definition in the book).  thoughts: the concept of 'don't worship false idols' came to mind. reminded of the idea of jesus encouraging others to focus on love. last night's conversation came to mind - focus on love. metamorphosis - you're changing. sometimes change hurts. that pain is sometimes necessary in order to become who we want to be. thoughts:  this card came out together with the one above. I viewed them as connected in concept. acceptance that things are changing and setting the expectation for that change to be good. (My question for the day is always 'what do i need to know or hear today for my highest good' or something to that effect.) dragon's lair - ente...

 5/1/2022 trust is a part of love. technically, all emotions are a part of compassion, but that's another layer than we want for this conversation/message. trust is a part of love. true love of another - be they family, friend, foe, or other - has no mistrust. the true depth of love is to accept another wholly and completely as they show themselves to you. regardless of what you may believe about them, regardless of what you might think about them. true love of another is to know that they would never do anything to hurt you, and that you would never do anything to hurt them. self-love is to give yourself that love. to trust wholly. to know that, no matter what someone shows you, it is only done in love. they are just a figment of that shadow in you, giving you that message. they are the messenger, holding the letter for you. if you can not feel love for them, for being that messenger, then feel love for yourself for loving yourself enough to give you the gift of that message. you ...

 i want donations because i want my wealth to be a reflection of the value of my work, not how well i can trick people into perceiving the value of my work.  i want all of my work available, whether people pay for it or not, because only having access to all of it can they decide how valuable it is to them keeping any aside, only available to those who pay for it (either one time, or as a subscription) to me feels as if the money isn't truly earned. the model feels based off of perceived worth, not true worth. someone can spend the money, then not feel they got, or are getting, what they're paying for it. i want people who give me money for my work to always feel as if they are paying what they can afford and what they want to pay. if my work has been immeasurably valuable to them, but they don't have money right yet - i want them to still have access to it. even if they never pay me and they make millions thanks to what they learned from me. i still want them to have it, b...

 I am intensely tired of people trying to sell me information. This has the same flavor to me as the deeply imbalanced and lack-mentality-based schooling of the '3d' world that these people claim to be rising above. I understand why they might go that route - charging for the work they did to put the information together, the time it took them, the resources that may or may not have been involved (let's face it, a lot of digital products don't require much in the way of resources the same way textbooks do). It just still all falls back into that old model that so many people are acknowledging as broken. If it's broken...why do you still -use- it? All I can feel in it is that it's still being used out of fear. Fear that they won't be compensated and taken care of by the universe in some other way.  Jesus didn't charge for healing, to the best of my knowledge. Granted, I suppose we don't truly know, and that's even assuming the man himself was real...

 4/29/2022 Where to start... I don't recall anymore exactly where the dream started. I remember seeing myself as Liliwai, in Labyrinthos (FFXIV), inside the forum's hangar for the spaceship that takes you to Ultima Thule. Where the ship usually was it was filled with a round area with a bunch of forum members (NPCs) behind a large, curved desk, handing out tasks. There were a bunch of other players/people around and I was trying to set up my hotbars for my alchemist so that I could accomplish the next few days easier. It felt like I was preparing to do a new set of crafting quests recently released. My vision kept flipping sort of between what Lili would actually be seeing and what looked like the UI for the game itself, because sometimes I would see, and be thinking about, the hotbars and gear, and sometimes it would feel more like I was -in- Lili's head, seeing the world as he would have been seeing it. The scene flipped about several times. A moment flying through Elpis ...